A CONSTANT EFFORT TO DO SOMETHING MEANINGFUL IN YOUR LIFE.

12:52 PM - March 26, 2025
In my fifth period class

In the recent past years I have felt like everything has been going by too fast. It is well known that doing the same thing over and over again makes every day blend together and time go by faster. Although these past few years have been pretty eventful for me, almost every day doing things that differ from the day prior. But then people say that time flies when you're having fun. So what is it? Doing different and eventful things makes time go faster, but doing boring and repetitve things also makes time go faster. So then what is the solution? How do you make life feel longer and more impactful? I've been trying to find the answer to that.
Humans have had that problem since we've existed. A solution that people come up with is to create things that etch your existince into the physical world; People create paintings, sculptures, music, etc. I agree with this method, every so often I like to create something and I feel like it is a more meaningful activity than most things. The creative works I do are points in time that I can look back on, I feel like they have meaning. Just doing an activity or going to some place is great obviously, but having something physical to almost prove your existance has a bigger impact.

HAPPINESS AND ITS EXISTENCE WITHOUT SORROW.

12:48 PM - March 31, 2025
Also in my fifth period class

I would say that my life is pretty good in the grand scheme of things. Sorrow and anger aren't common feelings for me, I go about most of my days either happy or neutral. And obviously this is a good thing right?
It is common knowledge that in our lives, we have ups and we have downs. Negative events that shape your character and help you learn from failure, then positive events to recover and keep ourselves sane. It is meant to be a balance, Yin and Yang, or so I've heard. But what if there is no negative? no Yang? Does having no negatives offset a balance of life? If you don't have the balance of good and bad, that might cause someone to search for a negativity in their life (that would be a cool movie concept). Thats what I thought a little bit ago and I thought it was interesting to write about.

EVERY HUMAN AND EVERY INDIVIDUAL LIFE.

6:17 PM - April 1, 2025
At home

I feel like people don't talk enough about the fact that every person, all 8.2 billion of us, are living their own independent lives. Just the thought that there are billions of unique perspectives, stories, relationships, and friendships is unreal due to it's scale. AND all of these events are happening simultaneously, like what?? A single human life has an incomprehensible sense of scale, I feel like a life feels so grand due to how we view other lives. In movies and videos we get a sight into what it might be like to be in someone else's universe, but we can never truly know.
This also brings up the thought of explanations for this seemingly impossible concept. I've had that thought that everyone else has had before of: is everyone else a real character in their own sense, are their lives real without my perception. I feel like the obvious answer is that yes, obviously people have their own lives, the world doesn't revolve around me. But technically, my life is my own universe, my life revolves around me. This is what causes the questioning of that concept.
I mean idk, maybe when I'm not looking at them, people turn grey, loose collision, Tpose and despawn.

IDK YET.

imma do this at some point

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